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[Jan. 1st, 2004|08:34 pm] |
from now on i shall be found at www.livejournal.com/~nastyshow
add me, i will add you back |
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[Dec. 30th, 2003|08:52 pm] |
People are being mean to my sister, and i speak to one of them on msn, he's a fucking weird bastard.
They all say they now hate her, because for some reason she has all of a sudden gotten herself into good music, they think she is faking it, that she just wants to look cool, they keep saying 'yr a fucking townie you wanker, why bother to be cool' just because of the way she dresses.
sure this change has been sudden, but i am missing a lot of CDs from my collection, she obviously likes some of this music, i hear her listening to it, she sings along, she's enjoying herself, she wants to come and see live bands with me.
yeh but she also confessed to wanting to be me, which is scary.
but there is no need for all her friends to turn on her, now she has no one, that's just so horrible, and so remminissant(sp?) of what happened to me about a year ago, well, not with the music, no one ever haad a problem with me being cooler than them, but yeh, sucky for her.
i don't wanna fight her battle, but taking the piss out of this guy is so much fun, he's such an idiot, he knows nothing about music, he has stupid hair, he is called Greenie, his e-mail address is gothic_greenie_666 or something stupid like that.
WHAT A WANKER |
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| Quiz i did steal-to be filled in using band songs |
[Dec. 30th, 2003|05:38 pm] |
Are you male or female: She
How old are you: So Young
Describe yourself: another no one
How do some people feel about you: trash
How do you feel about yourself: Have you ever been this low?
Describe your views on significant others and crushes: moving
Describe what you want: sleeping pills
Describe how you live: By the sea
Describe how you love: together
Share a few words of wisdom: every monday morning comes
i was gonna do the manics, but it felt a little cliche, and a little to easy.
easyworld is the best, for the last wisdom one, you can put 'people who don't climb ladders (aren't particularly likely to fall off ladders now, are they?)'
but the person i stole this from did that, i would have felt mean. |
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[Dec. 30th, 2003|05:32 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Smashing Pumpkins-today | ] |
this new years will be so different from the past 2.
Last year me and my cousin went to Joe's house party, i got really pissed, ended up topless in the hallway with CJ, many people walked passed, but i was pretty out of it and dind't seem to care (slut).
Year before spent at home, many people came over who i didn't know, my uncle gave me a little bit too much champagne, i got very very drunk, got angry with my sister and tipped her bin over her head.
this year, going to the pub in malpas, with Jenny, Natalie, probably Helen, and probably michelle, and other people. I've never spent a holliday season type thing in a pub before, how odd, i usually prefer places where there are drugs, like house parties, because, i like drugs.
No one is home still, i don't want to sleep anymore, i have bathed, i want to text someone, but i can't think who, maybe i don't, maybe i want to be on my own.
yes i am still listening to siamese dream, it's my homework doing CD, but i left it on, and it keeps looping, and i love it. |
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| Mayonaise |
[Dec. 30th, 2003|03:33 pm] |
Fool enough to almost be it
Cool enough to not quite see it
Doomed
Pick your pockets full of sorrow
And run away with me tomorrow
June
We'll try and ease the pain
But somehow we'll feel the same
Well, no one knows
Where our secrets go
I send a heart to all my dearies
When your life is so, so dreary
Dream
I'm rumored to the straight and narrow
While the harlots of my perils
Scream
And I fail
But when I can, I will
Try to understand
That when I can, I will
Mother weep the years I'm missing
All our time can't be given
Back
Shut my mouth and strike the demons
That cursed you and your reasons
Out of hand and out of season
Out of love and out of feeling
So bad
When I can, I will
Words defy the plan
When I can, I will
Fool enough to almost be it
And cool enough to not quite see it
And old enough to always feel this
Always old, I'll always feel this
No more promise no more sorrow
No longer will I follow
Can anybody hear me
I just want to be me
When I can, I will
Try to understand
That when I can, I will |
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[Dec. 30th, 2003|03:02 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | smashing pumpkins-quiet | ] |
i just wrote my rough draft on 'how do these sources on the poor law reform show popularity and success' or some title as equally annoying. Thing is, this essay can only be up to 1000 words, i have not compleated mine, and it is already 1300, i write too much, but i can't seem to cut it down grr.
I wanna go for a fag, but i can't find a lighter/matches anywhere, i had 3 lighters the other day! |
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[Dec. 30th, 2003|01:46 pm] |
You are...... YOU & ME!
My god you're frisky
go and sit in the corner till you've calmed down
and no sugar for you til wednesday
(don't think i don't know about those magazines)
Which easyworld song are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
wheeee
return of the king is good yes
clare's was good
i now am tired though, i did not sleep, her chiwaua(sp?) is sooooo cute, but it shat and pissed everywhere, i want a fag, and i have one, i just can't move, too cold outside anyway.
i need to do work
fucking hell i can't be bothered |
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[Dec. 29th, 2003|01:16 am] |
i just watched the haunting again, with my dad, it seemed better than when i watched it all those years ago.
we also watched a bit of red dwarf, i think it was one of the best ones i have ever seen.
i am typing sooooo quietly, if anyone finds me on the net at this hour i will be shot.
i'm not tired, but i know i need sleep, i'm sure in the past 5 days/nights i have only had about 15 proper hours of sleep, which isn't good for me, as i love sleep, and i need it.
i don't want to go to bed anyway, i wont sleep for ages, and there is no one there for me to be with. |
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[Dec. 28th, 2003|09:35 pm] |
tess broke up with stu
he offered to buy her a ring
and said he could so see himself engaged to her
so she ran away!
hahahahaha |
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[Dec. 28th, 2003|09:07 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  lonely | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the faint cry of axl rose from my sisters room | ] |
i just wanted to write a big long entry about how i feel when i get close to someone, then i forgot how i just explained it to nicky, and i can't be bothered to open the chat logs.
i'm not sure what i want was the main point i think.
does anyone wanna go and see my friends band at the liverpool cavern club on the 10th of january?
they are very good
michael/dale/people abouts liverpool i am talking to you especially.
also would anyone like to come and stay at mine that weekend? |
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[Dec. 28th, 2003|12:49 am] |
FIRST REAL KISS:
When I was 14 i think
FIRST JOB:
never had a job
FIRST SCREEN NAME:
bionic
FIRST SELF PURCHASED ALBUM:
no idea
FIRST FUNERAL:
my great aunts
FIRST PET:
my cat Ziggy
FIRST PEIRCING:
ears when i was 12
FIRST BIG TRIP:
france
LAST BIG CAR RIDE:
err today too ages to get to chester...
LAST KISS:
loong ago
LAST GOOD CRY:
short while ago
LAST MOVIE SEEN:
galaxy quest
LAST BEVERAGE:
tea
LAST FOOD CONSUMED:
i don't think i've eaten today
LAST PERSON YOU MISSED:
myself
LAST PHONE CALL:
ommmm Patrick
LAST TV SHOW WATCHED:
can't remember
LAST SHOES WORN:
Boots
LAST WISH:
sex
LAST CD PLAYED:
pink grease
LAST ITEM BOUGHT:
scarf
LAST DISAPPOINTMENT:
patrick not being able to come over soon enough for my liking
LAST SODA DRANK:
cola
LAST ICE CREAM EATEN:
can't remember
LAST SHIRT WORN:
err pink one
i update too much
i stay on the net too late now :( |
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[Dec. 27th, 2003|11:06 pm] |
I can't believe how upset i get over nothing much, i can't stop myself from crying anymore.
i need someone to come and look after me and tell me i'm going to be ok, and tell me i am a nice person, and there is nothing wrong with me. |
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[Dec. 27th, 2003|10:02 pm] |
I accidently found chris edwards in marks and sparks while i was looking for the loo, he said he was looking for his girlfriend and really wasn't a perve(him being in the kiddies section) He asked me if i was going to Kim's party tonight. Have i been invited......no, do i even want to go......no, and that is the thing that worries me, i don't want to go anywhere anymore, i don't see the point, nothing good ever really happens, shopping is just a minor perk to having money.
Jase is going to see placebo in manc, he said we can meet up, yey.
oh yeh, but i'm not allowed to go to that either, because it's a wednesday. |
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| just to express my depressive mood swings more |
[Dec. 27th, 2003|09:33 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | why do i have to live here | ] |
| [ | music |
| | none bastard parents | ] |
Going to chester today was good for me, it got me out of the house, it stopped me thinking about sex for a whole 4 hours.
I bought some nice things:
from oxfam (hooooray):
Glittery purple scarf-£2
Full arm length silky stretchy deep purple gloves-£3
Portishead-Dummy (i felt random) on tape-99p
Guns 'n' roses-november rain/yesterday vinyl-£2
from topshop:
Bright pink sweater of nice warmness-£5
Also my mum and dad bought a new TV because our old one is now practically perminantly black and white for no reason.
bumped into stu in town, he was lovely to me, he is one of the coolest people i know, even if we argue more than get on.
My sister asked me to reccomend some CDs for her to get, so i said these:
Manics-Generation terrorists
Smashing pumpkins-siamese dream
easyworld-this is where i stand (this was not in shops so she did not get it)
i actually have those albums though, she could borrow them, she just wants them for herself hehe.
But right now, i feel really down, again. I was talking to my dad about going to see easyworld on the 12th, which yes, is a monday, but he said i could go and he would pick me up at 11, no later as i have 6th form the next day. Then i said to my mum about it, and she went mad and said i couldn't go, and my dad went on her side and said he never said i could go. So i cried and went to my room to listen to music, then my dad came and unplugged my CD player because he said it was too loud and my rediculous obsession with music has to stop.
My mum now just came up to me and told me she is going to disconnect the internet if i stay on it more than an hour tonight, like she cares, she doesn't want to use it, she is just trying to depress me.
for once i actually want to go to therapy, i want someone to talk to.
I think i may drop out of 6th form, i am in no way cleaver enough to be there, and it just depresses me, i have so much work to be getting on with, but in truth, i don't think i can even put my mind to it right now, or ever, i want to drop out, but if i do, my mum and dad will disown me, and i would have to go and live in a box. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 27th, 2003|12:15 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | the smiths-sheila take a bow | ] |
oh yeh, last night i managed to trip the entire downstairs lights at about 1am, it was scary, the computer didn't go off though, the mains were ok.
but fuck me! i was shit scared |
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[Dec. 27th, 2003|12:03 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | the smiths-that joke isn't funny anymore | ] |
i had a dream that i fucked james (i'm american!) hunt in a farm house.
tell me i'm not going mad. |
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[Dec. 26th, 2003|08:58 pm] |
i keep sleeping too much
i got up at 12:30, came online for a bit, at about 4 i went to bed, only just got up again, am still very tired.
thats what you get from going to bed at 4am due to too many nice things running around in your head i guess. |
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[Dec. 26th, 2003|02:29 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | none due to headache | ] |
my head hurts lots today, and i didn't even get up till 12:30.
i shouldn't drink red wine.
I am bored though, and i have decided to make a list of all the bands i have seen this year, well, that i can remember anyway. (including support bands i remember.)
easyworld x3
placebo x2
king adora x2
little nikita x2 (i think, maybe 3)
biffy x2
suede
razorlight
skin (ok i didn't really see her, but i heard her)
span
oceansize
80's matchbox b-line disaster x2 (shiiiiiiiiit)
little hell x2
the delays
Manic street preachers (at last)
Super Furry animals
Teenage fanclub (kill me)
flaming lips
kinesis (well, the last 2 songs of their set, was late, had a hangover)
Electric 6
Jetplane landing (i think)
i think that is all i can remember, if anyone thinks of anymore, tell me.
BOOOOOOORRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEED |
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[Dec. 25th, 2003|11:34 pm] |
i am a little picddled
no, rob, i have not weetted myself
i think i watnt o call patrick again
biut all i do is say stupid thigns
never ever get pople to like me being stupid |
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